Repentance

I beat myself up over something on almost an hourly basis.

I struggle to forgive myself because I accepted bad treatment and I did nothing about it. My ex-girlfriend, my ex-job, my ex-friend to name a few incidences. The one that really gets me is my ex-colleague. Why did I do nothing when he ripped me apart, for no good reason? in front of the team. I swallowed anger but it built up on me. It also encouraged others to act in a nasty way.

26/08/2012

9 moths later, this is still a challenge for me. I allowed myself to get angry and disheartened when there were plenty of more appropriate options available. Time to move on.